Goodbye 2010

Goodbye 2010 and welcome 2011
I gonna left all those remorse and bad things behind...
Welcome my brand new lively 2011...
Cheer all my dear... <3

See ya in 2011...
Sorry for that few post in 2010...

Avril Lavigne is going to publish her new album <3
Love so much ^^

Soulless

I'm pretty sure that these all just happened today were trying to ruin me...
And I had no words on it...
Not knowing how to express my feeling at all...
Not knowing how to get someone to share...
Just because of even I myself felt what I'm thinking was childish...
So no more expressing...Even tears are dying to run out from my tear glance...
But I'll never allow...
Never and ever again...

Truly...it's still hurt...
I'm not that strong as what I show you always...
Just nobody will understand the true behind a strong girl...
No one would find out that I'm just pretending...
And everyone would just spare my feeling like I will be understanding and get over it like I always do...
I have no other choice besides here to calm myself...
Please allow me to post something unhappy today...
Just want to get over it...
I'm trying hard...

You know I always do...

No longer

Just saw my bro’s friend Facebook tagged him in their graduation album…
Oh…I miss my secondary school life…
Miss my besties so much…

Recalling on those memory…
Ponteng in QS room…
Pouring water on each and other in front of toilet…
Running away from Guru Discipline…
Basketball matches…
Singing in class… XD

Haha…How wonderful it was…

Too bad…
Time always pass by cruelly…
I’m no longer a secondary school student…
No longer the one I used to be…

I’m now in somewhere far from my sweet home…
Far from all my besties…

Working and studying…
What a life?

I couldn’t figure anything out right now…

Tomorrow is going to have my examination…
Wish me luck…

Nightz… XOXO…

恋空

如果还爱着，请不要轻言放弃！
因为当时间不再允许的时候，
所有的一切都只能变成回忆！

君は幸せでしたか？　
とても幸せでした。

笑って

保持微笑，
你永远不知道，
你最爱的，
会在什么时候，
就这样
永远的消失不见！

幸福

我曾经以为幸福很遥远，
幸福捉不住，
幸福不容易！

今天猛然才发现，
幸福经常与我同在，
只是擦身而过，
并不为意幸福曾经到访过！

幸福很简单，
一个人在国外生活，
才明白其实能呆在家里也是一种幸福！

在家里，有家人照料，
有妈妈的爱心汤，
有一起看连续剧的时间，
有很多很多的小小回忆！

今天由于馋嘴，
自己当起小厨，
煮了“酿豆腐”来吃！
这料理真的，真的很花时间！
才发现，原来经常能到外婆家，
吃外婆煮的“酿豆腐”，
其实真的很幸福！

曾经我以为离我很远的“幸福”
终于明白幸福不需要一个很爱的人，或很爱你的人，
只要细心体会每一天的生活，
心存感恩，知足，
幸福其实一点也不遥远！

找不到的理由

心情沉重...
找不到的理由...

今天去逛了小学同学的部落格...
每次每次去看了他的部落格的感想就是...
我什么时候才会变得跟他一样的成熟啊？
为什么老是爱把不重要的东西往心里记？
把无关要紧的事想个百遍？
可是却总想不出任何的解决方法啊？

去看了他的部落格...
会察觉自己很渺小...
同样是人...思想却差个一大截...
别人关心的事国家大事，
我？关心芝麻绿豆的小事...

我蛮喜欢他的部落格...
其实有时候察觉自己的渺小是一件好事...
至少学会不再对芝麻绿豆的小事斤斤计较...

很沉重...
在另一个国度，有很多说不出口的烦恼...
大概，这全都是成长的必经之路...
不曾走过的话，大概会是我一辈子的遗憾...

独自一个人盲目的往既定目标前进...
到底能支撑多久？
我不肯定...
我应该是太累了，心很累，精疲力尽的...

放弃？
放弃我做不到...
我大概太需要这目标支撑我好好的活下去...

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原来我在意

今天才发现...
原来我在意...
那封这一辈子也不可能再收到的信息...

沉重的心情...
一句无心插柳的问题...
让我眼泪不争气...
在眼眶打圈...

原来我在意...

Give up

I don’t know what does the pain means…
It was a song…just a song…
And it wasn’t the song we heard together…
But I still tears when I was singing it…
I know I miss you…

I know it shouldn’t be in such a way…
to missed about you…
Don’t worry…
All of the things I recall…
was those happy memory…
That’s the way I missed you now…

You know...This is the thing that I don't really wanna admit...
But too bad it's feel too real...
I know I fall into someone…
The feeling…was just because I’m too lonely…
And I know…This wasn’t the thing that I should involve myself in…
Sometimes I told myself that…what’s the point to let go it so easy?
I always wanna get what I want…and I’ll work hard after it…
But I don’t think so now is the proper moment…

I’m now shouting here…
This wasn’t the thing I should do right now…
I’m going to give up…forget it and get myself off from everything about that…
No more the someone…no more no more and no more…

Let’s put my hard work on my study…my dreams…and my future…
I swear I’ll let go it this time
I swear I won't screw it up tis time...

And about the accident…
Don’t worry…I’m fine ^^

Actually I wanna talk a lot…
but…don’t know why…
I like to talk about those stupid thing…

Reality…
I surrender…

And the song that made me missed about you was...

只说给你听

Reality

There are a lot of situation happen around me…

The very first time I learnt to live my life against reality…
Learn not to fight to hard against reality…
And I learn how to bow my stubborn thought to reality…
Compromise with reality…

I did have a job right now…
And I didn’t really like it…
But when it is the only job I can work for right now…
What else can I do after it?

I do not have the ability to change a new job right now…
Those other job might be more interesting….
But what if the pay wasn’t as much as the job I’m working for right now…
And when you really need a job for all the living expenses…
What else I can do?

Say NO to my mind…
" NO, You have no choice!”

And that’s the end…

I’m going to give a tough try…
To like this boring job…

The very first time…
I learnt not to be childish anymore…

I used to become the girl…
When I don’t like the job…I might chance it…
I do have time and chance…
but in this country…
I seriously do not have a lot of choices…

Because I’m foreigner…

P/S : Hey my fashion sweeties…
Good Luck in your webshop… ^^

Dream

A dream that too far away from you could achieve…
Would you just give up that easy?
Would you just let the opportunity passed by?

I’m no longer waiting for the next opportunity…
I want it…And I’ll not give up without a tough try…

Dream whatever when you are still young and work hard after it…
Or else you will live a life of regretting why I’m not doing my favourite job when you grow up…

I need Air-condition

I’m so sorry for not updating my blog…
Life’s here was seriously busy…
My day was fulfil by study work and sleep…
Don’t even have any free  time for drama and my Twilight…
Too bad… X.X

I miss my besties in Malaysia so much…
I really hope that I could be the one in their 21st Birthday Party…
Their outing…and Movie with you all…

Life’s go on…
The day I chose to be here…I should realize that I got to miss you all a lot…
And time passed by seriously fast…
I have been in Japan for 3 months…

I don’t even know that I could feel the loneliness so deeply in this country…
Maybe lack of besties and my family around me…
It wasn’t a proper moment to fall into someone…
And I did fall into…What should I do….
Better keep myself away from those unexpected things that could mess me up once again…

Lovely…first time that I don’t really have idea what should I do… =D
Not even 1…
And this is the most stupid thing that I had ever did in this new country…
fall into someone… zzZZzzzZZZZzzzz…

Summer is coming around…
The weather is going to be extremely hot…
And I need Air-condition!!!

Keep Trying =)

Much more better feeling compare to last 2 weeks…
Maybe the negative emotion was some how cause by the sick that suffer me for almost 3 weeks…
Cough for 3 weeks…Killing me…My throat was so painful…
And the most important thing was I can’t even sing… >_<

I used to too PRINCESS at home…
My mom take care of me a lot when I was sick…
And I got well soon very fast because I do have mom who took care on my food…
Seriously, I do not have anyone who do this for me… =(
I miss my mom dishes so much…
Not only when I’m sick…
When I have no idea what to eat today…
When I wish to eat something so much but I do not how to cook it…
When I was too busy till I do not have enough time to cook something good for myself…

Life here was too real…
Too realistic…
There’s no more drama in my life…
No more TV programme…
No more any free time for Twilight…
No more time for comic…
No more movie time with friends…

I used to have a lot free time for my favourite activities…
Too bad I do have very limited time now…
I can only manage them with priority…
And the most important thing was the study right now….
And what…I always arrange outing before I got my time for study… XD

I was freaking boring with the life without fashion magazine…
Without my Hollywood Fashion Icon, Vogue magazine and even Newspaper…
Life’s changed…a lot…
I was still me…but the lifestyle was like someone else I do not recognize…

Maybe that’s why I was so suffer for last two weeks…
I’m feeling better now…
Since chatting with my besties via msn…
Since I received my besties message…
Since a blog post of my best friend…

“What makes you different from others is the effort that you're putting on and the spirit that you're holding on.” dedicated to LiLing <3

Seems like I did forgot the reason why I’m here…
And I got to pick up it back…
No matter how hard it will be…
We just got to keep trying…

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse is going on screen on 30th June <3
I’m so excited now ^^

May god blessed me

More and more depressing…

I doubt myself sometimes whether did I make the right choice?
Seem like runaway to another place else didn’t cure…
I’m still me…

I’m so sorry I didn’t meant to be so emo…
I was giving out a lot…
And ending always disappointed me…

Should I doubt myself that I seriously not good in socialize?
I probably not having any social skill…
Sometimes feel like I’m abandoned…
Especially in the country where I do not have people to talk with…
The social circle was too limited…
And when I did told something…Everyone would know….

I was so disappointed…extremely…
But I couldn’t tell any story here…

Tears are running out from my tear glance…

This is the place where I wish so much to be in…
It' should not feel this way…
Something went wrong…and again…

You know...
Girls always think a lot...
Haiz...no choice... >_<

MaMa… I miss you so much…
and all my lovely friends in Msia…
I know that you all are forever there for me =)

May god blessed me…

God Blessed

The lesson from last Friday and today was killing me...
>_<

And I'm still not in the mood to go for my study...
zZZzz...
Problem that never been solve...
Can we just forgive everything and get over it...
Can we just forgive someone that not purposely did a mistake?
Can we just treat everyone like our own family member?

I'm so depressing...
I hope it won't turn up the same situation that I met before...
God blessed...

My class today was like ?_?
I have a lots of question marks... =(

Meow Meow should hardworking on her study...
Ganbatte~

I only have few people that I can talk to in Japan....
Or probably not having one...
I missed all my besties... >_<

The story that I'll never forget...
The meaning of this song meant to me...
Everything happen on that day...

I thought I'll get through everything that I care a lot...
I thought time cures everything...
I thought it'll be a new life...

The fact was...
Even though I let go something that I probably should...
There are still some memories...
The memories that I appreciate so much...

I know I shouldn't post a entry like this...
I was disappointed...
Just disappointed when I found out I seriously doesn't mean anything...
The present I wished to receive the most wasn't any diamond or gold...
A birthday wishes from you was like some treasure that I would never find it...
And I know that I had expected too much =)

But still....It's hurt...

The day when I know the truth...
The day when I heard this song...
The day when I drunk...
The memory will never fade...

Strength less

Seriously I’m not feeling well…
Not the way my body didn’t feel well…
The way my heart…seriously not feeling well…

How does it feel when you trying be good but the fact was no one appreciate it…
Kind of sad and disappointment…
I seriously hate it when I was trying hard but no one take it seriously…
Give up? Should I?

I hate this kind of environment when all things went wrong…
I hope that there are solutions that allow us to solve the problem…
But when you are not the main character…
What can I do?

And this reminded me the oldest memory…
The fact that I wrote blog…
The fact that my every entries was trying to tell about…
The fact that I was trying so hard to runaway from…

I thought it will be a new start point of my life…
I had chosen this way and I should make it possible…
Too bad that when I finally found out…
I was just trying to ignore and never really get over…

I’m seriously not a profession in management of relationship…
I doubt myself…
I didn’t really know the decision that I made was right or not…

Strength less…
About everything…every choice that I made…

God blessed…
Please let me really find out a solution of those thing I felt something went wrong…

I’m not tough enough =(

Thank you for the priceless gift

Thank you for the priceless gift that I ever received before...
The most meaningful present that I ever received...
I love you girls forever <3
Crystal, Kelly, Gisele, Adeline and JooLing and Sinny...

I missed the days we went through together...
We laugh together...
Sad together...
Rushing assignments together...
Helping each and others...
Cat walk on table...
Hang out together...
Sing K together...

I will never forget the days we spent together...
I will always remember the strength that you girls brought to me...
To make me strong enough to face with all the difficulties in my life...

I wish that you girls have a bright future and healthy always...
I make the wishes when I was watching the video.. =)

I love you girls... <3

X.O.X.O.

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The day before my Birthday

Oh my god…I finally found some extra time to update my blog…@_@
I don’t really know what I’m busying about…
My life was just like a very normal student…
Go to school in the morning…
Come back to hostel at noon…
Prepare for my lunch…
Do my revision…
Prepare for dinner…
Bath~ … XD
Webcam with Mommy…
Sleep then…

Hang out sometimes…
Go to supermarket and find out cheap stuff…
Walk around to learn the road…
Window shopping mostly….

Go to my agent house on weekend…
Chit chat…
Drink sake…wine and beer ^^
Cook together…

And this kind of vacation study life is going to end very soon…
After I start my work…
I will not have lots of photo to upload soon… =(

How about the study?
I can still catch up now…
But later…I don’t know… @_@

Wish me good luck…

And Happy Birthday to myself…
Tomorrow is my 21st Birthday…
I’m going to spend the birthday in Japan...
Probably will be a very normal 1… =)

Happy Birthday Meow~ <3

The Second Day

The second day was a very busy day…
We went to apply the student visa, bank account, Insurance, and Hp…
We just went out for the whole day and rush here and there…
My head was spinning around…
And we reached home at almost 11pm…
Another late bath…
Freaking cold… @_@
Seriously need time to adapt with this weather and temperature…

We did stole some time to take picture of Sakura…
 

 

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First Day

The first day I reached Japan…
Lovely…Japan welcomed me with 7 degree Celsius …
Freaking cold…
Thanks to my agent who drove to take us back to our hostel…
Because normally they took train…

The night view of Japan is gorgeous…
My first time to see the Tokyo Tower…
Even though far away from it…
It was so lovely…
I will be visit there as soon as I can…

We reached home seriously late…
Nice to meet my new home…
I mean new hostel ^^

I will try to write when I’m free…
Too bad that I do have too few time for it…
I’ll try my best…

Miss ya all my lovely friends… <3

Last day

Today is my last day staying in Malaysia.
The feelings are complicated.
There’s a kind of excited to be in my dream land,
and kind of nervous to leave the place where I grew up.

My luggage was half way packed.
20kg is seriously too limited.
I got a lot of things to bring.
Too bad that I have to cut off a lot.
I’m asking my mom to post my stuff to me.

There’s somebody that I had no chance to visit yet.
Too bad about that.
Please forgive me for that.

It’s time to stop here.
I haven’t finish pack my things yet.
See you !!!

Muackzzz…
I will miss you all <3

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse

I just my most favourite twilight series third book “Eclipse”

I love twilight forever.
Edward Cullen is my hero!!!

New Moon was so touching…
I tears for it a lot… T.T
I will write another post about it… <3

It’s time for Eclipse ^^

Gathering at KL

I visited my BFFs who working hard on their assignment!
LiLing & YiWen, two of them were crazy doing assignments.
Kesian!!!
I hope my visit didn’t interrupt that much!

We didn’t take any photo actually!
So, I’m writing those days out.

The first night I went up by YiWen’s car.
It was a lightning night.
I saw a lots of lightning non-stop flashed across the sky!!!
After we reached, I followed YiWen to Edwin’s house.
Their assignment made me sick…
I have no any idea about electronic thing…seriously no!!! @_@

The next day we went to Genting Highland at night.
We went to Casino!!!
OMG!!! It was a breathtaking moment when we walked in.
We act like we’re allowed to enter… >_<
Wah Wah Wah!!! My first time in Casino…
I seriously love the non-smoking zone. XD

After that we went to Starbucks.
Me and FaiLin were exhausted and we slept on the sofa in Starbucks.
LiLing, Edwin and GouLou were Dota-ing there….Geng…
We went back almost 4am !!!
You know…Genting is freaking cold !!!

On the third day, we went for pool.
Seriously, it was my first pool game.
Sorry for my very stiff action…hahaha…
But I like it…It was fun !!!
Shall we pool again when I come back???

I bought Baskin Robbin back before I came back Seremban.
It was the 31st discount day of Baskin Robbins.
Strawberry Cheesecake and Caramel Chocolate Crunch.
Thanks for my BFFs for driving me here and there.

I will miss you all always <3
* Muackzzz *

Up In The Air

Seriously I have no idea what to comment on this movie...
It was just simply impressive...
And I finally understand why the nominated movie wasn't those most sellable one...
A story line without action and graphical effect...
I don't see any "wow" like Avatar...
But the story does impress me a lots...

The philosophy of life...
The examination of the philosophy that you believe...

Seriously I give this movie 5 thumbs...
Whoever haven't watched it yet...
Please go for it~

George Clooney and Anna Kendrick...
I think I get the reason of those nomination and award...

Gathering part 4

After the crazy PD gathering, the next day was gathering with Sinny who work in Singapore for a while.
Seriously, I had a lots of thing to do before I went to KL to meet them.
It’s kinda tired actually!

We decided to have dinner together at Sunway Pyramid.
What had we chosen?
yeah~ Full House…

I ordered a Chicken Chop and shared Ice Blended Chocolate Mint and Latte with Sinny and Crystal…
The tea? I stole it from JooLing… Lovely…I love lemongrass…

Crazy Yoniki who love to take photo !!!

After that we went to Opera…
Just for a while… XD

I will miss you girls…always <3

Gathering part 3

After gather with my fashion course girls…
There’s another gather with my ex-colleague of Star Optical House…
They suggested to Port Dickson but I turned it down….
Totally not in mood when they asked me to go Port Dickson…
Then we decided to go for mamak “old zhong wan”
Seriously I had no idea what’s the name of the mamak…

On the day we went out…
The mood of going to Port Dickson suddenly strong enough and make my turn to suggest it…
Great one…They agreed…And we just went Port Dickson…

The most incredible thing was we didn’t “yum cha” at Port Dickson…
We just drive to Port Dickson and back… XD
haha…and what…We “yum cha” at the mamak we decided the day before…

I seriously shocked by the Roti Tisu…
How tall is it???
Guees~~~

Gathering Day 2

On the second day we went to Green Box in Sg. Wang.
And what…KTV always my favourite…
lalala~~~lalalalala~~~lalala~~~
Wohoo~~~

Know what???
Yi Wen told me that they went to Room 1 in Green Box too that day on 6pm!!!
Just after us at 5pm !!! @_@

After KTV we went for shopping…actually window shopping… XD
We didn’t really buy anything!!!

Me and Crystal stole some time for Baskin Robbin before dinner!!!

And it’s dinner time!!!
TGI Friday~~~

I shared the set dishes with Kelly and Crystal @_@
Since we ate Baskin Robbin…I don’t think I can finish a set!!!

We went for a movie right after our dinner…
Alice in Wonderland…
I heart Avril Lavigne new song for the movie~~~
"Alice"

Gathering at Ulu Yam

Gathering with Adeline who came back for holiday~
We went to Ulu Yam for picnic…
And I wore a pair of 4 inch heels…XD
We reached our destination around 5pm…
It was extremely late for picnic actually…haha!!!
But the moment we spent together always memorable…

Although can’t see anything I love this two photos !!!

I love those moment we spent together…
No matter sad or happy one…
I appreciate everything between us…
Miss you girls <3

Finally the clear photo =)

The Call

Yesterday…I purposely ignored some call…
I didn’t know who is the owner of those number…
Some of them from sg…019…010…106…013…
I guess those number are from a friend that I accidently “sot” and give out my number…
Was a friend that I never close with…A secondary senior…
I picked up once…and I told him that I’m very busy…
After that, I just ignore calls from unknown number…

I got shock when I heard Crystal said that Sinny was trying to contact me yesterday…
I suddenly realize that those call that I didn’t pick up yesterday…
Will one of them were called from Sinny?
Ah~ I’m sorry about this…
Maybe she didn’t called though…

Okay fine…let’s not ignore any call anymore…
I was mopping the floor…
And the phone rang….
Unknown number end with xxxx xxx1…
Let’s not to ignore any call…
Just pick up…

“Hello”
”Hello, erm, who is this?”
Guess who?
I can’t really recognize the sound from the other side of the phone…
It' was familiar once upon a time…
It’s rare that the male voice I can’t really remember…
OMG…who knows…It’s call from him…
It’s amazing to receive a call from him always…
Although we didn’t talk much…

I know I shouldn’t tell the truth always…
But it did make me tears after I put down the phone….
Suddenly there are too much of things pass through my mind…
Too much of memories…and all of them are those happy one… =)
It’s different compare to the past…
I’m very thankful that he treat me as friend…
I always wish it that way…
But I’m not very sure what’s in his mind…

Thanks for the call…
I love you always…friend… XD

Gossip Girl

Gossip Girl is coming back on 8th March…

I’m so happy that Gossip Girl return…
It made me crazy when GG stop coming with new episode…
The story stop at the most interesting part…
What is going to happen between Nate and Serena?
Dan and Vanessa?
Chuck’s mother?
Lily’s ex husband…Serena and Eric’s father?
What’s going on with Jenny???

I can’t wait for it!!!

Sweet~ <3

The part that I admired the most was the story between Chuck and Blair…
Will Chuck come in reality???
And the female character I love the most is Blair…
She’s cute…
Don’t you think that?

I read a great news that Gossip Girl will have the fourth season…
Wow…I love Gossip Girl…
I love to see what’s the latest fashion in Gossip Girl…
I love what they put on Serena, Jenny, Blair and etc…
And Blake Lively is my favourite fashion icon…
I love her so much !!!

To all my friends that love Gossip Girl…
Let’s enjoy the new episode… =)
~X.O.X.O~