Keep Trying =)

Much more better feeling compare to last 2 weeks…
Maybe the negative emotion was some how cause by the sick that suffer me for almost 3 weeks…
Cough for 3 weeks…Killing me…My throat was so painful…
And the most important thing was I can’t even sing… >_<

I used to too PRINCESS at home…
My mom take care of me a lot when I was sick…
And I got well soon very fast because I do have mom who took care on my food…
Seriously, I do not have anyone who do this for me… =(
I miss my mom dishes so much…
Not only when I’m sick…
When I have no idea what to eat today…
When I wish to eat something so much but I do not how to cook it…
When I was too busy till I do not have enough time to cook something good for myself…

Life here was too real…
Too realistic…
There’s no more drama in my life…
No more TV programme…
No more any free time for Twilight…
No more time for comic…
No more movie time with friends…

I used to have a lot free time for my favourite activities…
Too bad I do have very limited time now…
I can only manage them with priority…
And the most important thing was the study right now….
And what…I always arrange outing before I got my time for study… XD

I was freaking boring with the life without fashion magazine…
Without my Hollywood Fashion Icon, Vogue magazine and even Newspaper…
Life’s changed…a lot…
I was still me…but the lifestyle was like someone else I do not recognize…

Maybe that’s why I was so suffer for last two weeks…
I’m feeling better now…
Since chatting with my besties via msn…
Since I received my besties message…
Since a blog post of my best friend…

“What makes you different from others is the effort that you're putting on and the spirit that you're holding on.” dedicated to LiLing <3

Seems like I did forgot the reason why I’m here…
And I got to pick up it back…
No matter how hard it will be…
We just got to keep trying…

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse is going on screen on 30th June <3
I’m so excited now ^^

May god blessed me

More and more depressing…

I doubt myself sometimes whether did I make the right choice?
Seem like runaway to another place else didn’t cure…
I’m still me…

I’m so sorry I didn’t meant to be so emo…
I was giving out a lot…
And ending always disappointed me…

Should I doubt myself that I seriously not good in socialize?
I probably not having any social skill…
Sometimes feel like I’m abandoned…
Especially in the country where I do not have people to talk with…
The social circle was too limited…
And when I did told something…Everyone would know….

I was so disappointed…extremely…
But I couldn’t tell any story here…

Tears are running out from my tear glance…

This is the place where I wish so much to be in…
It' should not feel this way…
Something went wrong…and again…

You know...
Girls always think a lot...
Haiz...no choice... >_<

MaMa… I miss you so much…
and all my lovely friends in Msia…
I know that you all are forever there for me =)

May god blessed me…

God Blessed

The lesson from last Friday and today was killing me...
>_<

And I'm still not in the mood to go for my study...
zZZzz...
Problem that never been solve...
Can we just forgive everything and get over it...
Can we just forgive someone that not purposely did a mistake?
Can we just treat everyone like our own family member?

I'm so depressing...
I hope it won't turn up the same situation that I met before...
God blessed...

My class today was like ?_?
I have a lots of question marks... =(

Meow Meow should hardworking on her study...
Ganbatte~

I only have few people that I can talk to in Japan....
Or probably not having one...
I missed all my besties... >_<

The story that I'll never forget...
The meaning of this song meant to me...
Everything happen on that day...

I thought I'll get through everything that I care a lot...
I thought time cures everything...
I thought it'll be a new life...

The fact was...
Even though I let go something that I probably should...
There are still some memories...
The memories that I appreciate so much...

I know I shouldn't post a entry like this...
I was disappointed...
Just disappointed when I found out I seriously doesn't mean anything...
The present I wished to receive the most wasn't any diamond or gold...
A birthday wishes from you was like some treasure that I would never find it...
And I know that I had expected too much =)

But still....It's hurt...

The day when I know the truth...
The day when I heard this song...
The day when I drunk...
The memory will never fade...

Strength less

Seriously I’m not feeling well…
Not the way my body didn’t feel well…
The way my heart…seriously not feeling well…

How does it feel when you trying be good but the fact was no one appreciate it…
Kind of sad and disappointment…
I seriously hate it when I was trying hard but no one take it seriously…
Give up? Should I?

I hate this kind of environment when all things went wrong…
I hope that there are solutions that allow us to solve the problem…
But when you are not the main character…
What can I do?

And this reminded me the oldest memory…
The fact that I wrote blog…
The fact that my every entries was trying to tell about…
The fact that I was trying so hard to runaway from…

I thought it will be a new start point of my life…
I had chosen this way and I should make it possible…
Too bad that when I finally found out…
I was just trying to ignore and never really get over…

I’m seriously not a profession in management of relationship…
I doubt myself…
I didn’t really know the decision that I made was right or not…

Strength less…
About everything…every choice that I made…

God blessed…
Please let me really find out a solution of those thing I felt something went wrong…

I’m not tough enough =(

Thank you for the priceless gift

Thank you for the priceless gift that I ever received before...
The most meaningful present that I ever received...
I love you girls forever <3
Crystal, Kelly, Gisele, Adeline and JooLing and Sinny...

I missed the days we went through together...
We laugh together...
Sad together...
Rushing assignments together...
Helping each and others...
Cat walk on table...
Hang out together...
Sing K together...

I will never forget the days we spent together...
I will always remember the strength that you girls brought to me...
To make me strong enough to face with all the difficulties in my life...

I wish that you girls have a bright future and healthy always...
I make the wishes when I was watching the video.. =)

I love you girls... <3

X.O.X.O.

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The day before my Birthday

Oh my god…I finally found some extra time to update my blog…@_@
I don’t really know what I’m busying about…
My life was just like a very normal student…
Go to school in the morning…
Come back to hostel at noon…
Prepare for my lunch…
Do my revision…
Prepare for dinner…
Bath~ … XD
Webcam with Mommy…
Sleep then…

Hang out sometimes…
Go to supermarket and find out cheap stuff…
Walk around to learn the road…
Window shopping mostly….

Go to my agent house on weekend…
Chit chat…
Drink sake…wine and beer ^^
Cook together…

And this kind of vacation study life is going to end very soon…
After I start my work…
I will not have lots of photo to upload soon… =(

How about the study?
I can still catch up now…
But later…I don’t know… @_@

Wish me good luck…

And Happy Birthday to myself…
Tomorrow is my 21st Birthday…
I’m going to spend the birthday in Japan...
Probably will be a very normal 1… =)

Happy Birthday Meow~ <3