Sunday, June 13, 2010

Keep Trying =)

Much more better feeling compare to last 2 weeks…
Maybe the negative emotion was some how cause by the sick that suffer me for almost 3 weeks…
Cough for 3 weeks…Killing me…My throat was so painful…
And the most important thing was I can’t even sing… >_<

I used to too PRINCESS at home…
My mom take care of me a lot when I was sick…
And I got well soon very fast because I do have mom who took care on my food…
Seriously, I do not have anyone who do this for me… =(
I miss my mom dishes so much…
Not only when I’m sick…
When I have no idea what to eat today…
When I wish to eat something so much but I do not how to cook it…
When I was too busy till I do not have enough time to cook something good for myself…

Life here was too real…
Too realistic…
There’s no more drama in my life…
No more TV programme…
No more any free time for Twilight…
No more time for comic…
No more movie time with friends…

I used to have a lot free time for my favourite activities…
Too bad I do have very limited time now…
I can only manage them with priority…
And the most important thing was the study right now….
And what…I always arrange outing before I got my time for study… XD

I was freaking boring with the life without fashion magazine…
Without my Hollywood Fashion Icon, Vogue magazine and even Newspaper…
Life’s changed…a lot…
I was still me…but the lifestyle was like someone else I do not recognize…

Maybe that’s why I was so suffer for last two weeks…
I’m feeling better now…
Since chatting with my besties via msn…
Since I received my besties message…
Since a blog post of my best friend…

“What makes you different from others is the effort that you're putting on and the spirit that you're holding on.” dedicated to LiLing <3

Seems like I did forgot the reason why I’m here…
And I got to pick up it back…
No matter how hard it will be…
We just got to keep trying…

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse is going on screen on 30th June <3
I’m so excited now ^^

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

May god blessed me

More and more depressing…

I doubt myself sometimes whether did I make the right choice?
Seem like runaway to another place else didn’t cure…
I’m still me…

I’m so sorry I didn’t meant to be so emo…
I was giving out a lot…
And ending always disappointed me…

Should I doubt myself that I seriously not good in socialize?
I probably not having any social skill…
Sometimes feel like I’m abandoned…
Especially in the country where I do not have people to talk with…
The social circle was too limited…
And when I did told something…Everyone would know….

I was so disappointed…extremely…
But I couldn’t tell any story here…

Tears are running out from my tear glance…

This is the place where I wish so much to be in…
It' should not feel this way…
Something went wrong…and again…

You know...
Girls always think a lot...
Haiz...no choice... >_<

MaMa… I miss you so much…
and all my lovely friends in Msia…
I know that you all are forever there for me =)

May god blessed me…